Anywhere But Here

Father, is that you?

You make my hands shake
When you clear you voice
You spin yourself around me
And take away my choice

I don’t know what to do
When I see simple words on a screen
Cause I can’t shut off the lights
I can’t make it all a dream

I can remember your face
The sound of your tears
Cause I can see you all around
And know you’re what I fear

Man, men such as you
An ounce of ash between them
You are not one to argue
Not one to condemn (yet you’ve condemned us to this)

Love and hate are words too often used
Lent like bargains between fools
I have no use for these words when I think of you
Your words are so sad and yet they are cruel

I don’t know what to do
When I see simple words on a screen
Cause I can’t shut off the lights
I can’t make it all a dream

I’ve been looking for you
Out on the country roads
The reeds are swaying
And crickets are a saying
That the day is long gone

But I look up and shine
I look up and shine
Cause I know that everything is gonna be okay
At the end of the day

In crowded streets beneath the fumes
I found a pocket knife
I found a way to cut your neck
Something to mend this wreck
And take away the pain

My mama’s cure is therapy
But I think I’d rather telepathy
I’m allergic to psychology
And giving you apologies
Cause everything I do is wrong

But I look up and shine
I look up and shine
Cause I know that everything is gonna be okay
At the end of the day

Cause I’ll look up and lie
Shining like the sun
Cause I know where you hide in yourself
I know what’s kept upon the shelf

He’s not capable of love
And he cannot tell me so
The sea is bulging out to the night
While he hides from mirrors in pure fright
And he knows self hates the worst kind of all

But I’ll look up and shine
I’ll look up and shine
Cause I’ve never felt what I felt before
Not even when I made a hole in this door

I’ve lived for love
Lived to end dead days
I lived beneath your gaze
And I thank my mother on my birthday
For life

Cause I’ll look up and shine
I’ll look up and shine
Cause I know that everything is gonna be okay
At the end of the day

And I go out in a blaze…